Why have I undertaken these writings? Well, it's certainly not because I enjoy writing. I have never really enjoyed writing.
But over the years it has become more appealing to me. I believe my view of writing has changed because there is
something inside that compels me to do it. I do not do it because I am convinced that anyone will really gain something
from my thoughts. But I do hope that those who read this will be helped to connect with the true self inside that always
speaks for truth.
It is interesting how I am obsessed with connecting with the inner self by observing things through the physical senses.
While this appears to be a natural result of the body experience, I believe there is a manner of thought that originates from
the spirit in spite of the body experience. As a young boy, I can remember having strange feelings about living in the body,
about how new and foreign and artificial it felt. Inside me, there were residual memories of how peaceful and secure it was
being totally in spirit. Conversely, the body experience was fearful and insecure. Have you ever experienced something in
the present via comparison with memories of the past? That is how I observed the body experience as a boy, in light of
things I remembered from being in the spirit. I know of other people who claim to have memories of entering the world at
birth. While this all sounds crazy and far-fetched, I ask you to consider the possibility that these things could possibly be
true. What if it were possible to function in the body but still see the world through the pure eyes of the true spirit inside?
How drastically would that affect our thought and actions?
The purpose of these writings is first and foremost to give way to the intense urge I have to write about the things I see with
my spirit. I am not interested in writing fiction. I am interested in understanding where I came from, and why I am here. I
assume most people have those same questions. But I do not claim to have full understanding of the answers to them.
However, I do believe that there is one who does. I believe that Christ was fully connected with truth at all times, knowing
from birth exactly who he was and what his purpose was for the world, and never lost sight of it or the truth during his
entire body experience. Instead of trying to understand the world through interpretation of body experiences, he
understood the truth of all things before he acted on anything with his body. And as is clear from many different forms of
scripture, he taught us that his experience could be our experience. So what must change in order for us to experience the
world like he experienced it? That is the basic question that underscores these writings. How can I be born again so that
everything about my thinking is turned right-side up when it is clearly upside-down. The answer is inside me, as it is you
and every other being that has ever lived on this planet. His message and mission was to view the outside via truth on the
While it may appear to the casual reader that these writings are intended to bash religion, that is simply not the case.
However, it is a tempting notion for me as I write these words. Religion is based on antichrist thinking. I'm not talking
666, beast-like antichrist. I simply mean that religion as a whole does not view the world from the inward spirit of truth but
rather through the outward, body experience - which is the essence of anti-Christ thinking. It claims to know all the
answers simply because it interprets the world through the sensations of the body. Body sensations, regardless of scale,
will never lead one to the understanding of truth. In fact, if left to its own devices, it will block truth from coming through
every time. It simply can't keep itself from doing so. Yet religious leaders attempt to scare the pants off of people by
preaching messages that include one irrational experience after another - fire that can never be quenched, eternal
separation from loved ones and God, etc., etc., etc. And why do they do this? Because their paramount concern is to
maintain an institution rather than lead people to the knowledge of the truth. Think this is not so? Schedule a meeting with
your church leaders and suggest that the church building be sold and the money given to the poor. This acid test will make
it clear to you what the real agenda of your religious leaders is. Another test would be to meet with your religious leaders
and explain to them how much money could be given to the poor if they were all to agree to have their salaries cut in half.
My personal view, born of firsthand experience, is that religion is nothing more than a social club geared towards raising
money first, and disseminating truth last.
It must be understood, however, that the goal of these writings is not to bash religion. Certainly, Christ harshly criticized
religious leaders at almost every turn. But what was his real message? It wasn't to harass arrogant religious leaders who
held other people captive with their false ideas of God and his laws. No, it was simply, "the kingdom of God is within
you." I encourage you to study scripture references to the "kingdom of God" or the "kingdom of heaven" in the four
gospels, and then explain to me how in the world religious leaders of today could ever teach that Christ's kingdom is
futuristic and external. Such a conclusion is preposterous. But what did Christ mean when he said, "the kingdom of God
is within you?" Have you ever wondered that? The goal of these writings is to answer that question. I am not claiming
that these writings do in fact answer that question for you, but I am on a personal quest to do so.
I had a conversion experience at age 18 that changed my life dramatically. At the time, I thought the experience was
directly caused by the "salvation" message I read in a religous periodical. While the article acted as the catalyst for change,
the truth is I was primed for change for a full year prior to the actual experience. I now believe that the change was not the
result of reading a religious article, but rather because in my spirit I was yearning for an experience with truth for a full year
before I finally asked for it. Heck, I didn't even know what I was asking for, through my words that is. My spirit, on the
other hand, knew exactly what I was looking for. The result was miraculous. My life changed immediately and
completely. And so I began the descent into hell, metaphorically speaking. Over the next several months, my life became
a series of rules and regulations because religion ruled my life. But I had a sincere desire to know truth - not truth
according to other men, but truth experienced firsthand. I began studying the scriptures, old King James of course, praying
for the Father to open them up to me according to his thoughts and not my own. At first, it was like reading Greek. I just
couldn't get it. And then it all started flowing like a river. I couldn't shut it off. I would study until the early morning hours,
get an hour of sleep, and go to work - day after day, night after night. And the one thought that kept filling my head like a
mantra was "the kingdom of God is within you...the kingdom of God is within you...the kingdom of God is within you."
And so the question finally came, "if the kingdom of God is within me, then what and where is hell?" I can still remember
the night the answer came, and the quietness that heralded its arrival in my mind. In fact, I get chills even today when I
think about it. "Hell is not a physical place." That thought silenced my mind. Again it came, "hell is not a physical
place...hell is not a physical place...hell is not a physical place." I then began to study what the word hell meant in Greek.
I found that, as usual, Christ chose a literal term to convey a spiritual truth. This was his method of teaching. He chose
literal terms and examples to convey the essence of truth. How else could he teach? He was surrounded by beings that
had become completely distracted by the physical world and in the process temporarily forgot who they were. So he used
ideas that they could relate with in hopes that the spirit within would awaken to the truth that produced the analogy. The
kingdom message and true definition of hell set me free from the bondage of rules and regulations, which is not to say that I
am unruly. The truth is bigger than rules and regulations that serve only to bind man's thoughts to the physical. In order to
be fulfilled, the true identity inside must look beyond the physical to what is real and eternal.
I believe that what Christ really meant to teach, those listening did not hear or understand. In fact, mankind is still not
getting it. Religion is certainly not getting it, testifying to that fact by their constant obsession with external happenings and
circumstances. What do you hear? What is the Father saying to you? What have you experienced of Him? Who are you
really and why are you here? This is the essence of the kingdom - knowing the truth instead of speculating about it. To the
spirit, truth is as tangible as any physical object is to the body - it must be experienced first hand in order to make an
impression. Please read on. Hopefully truth will make an impression in your spirit greater than it has in mine.
Introduction To The Writings of Jay